Beauty from Ashes

Change.

I’m not a big fan of change. 

It hurts me. It scares me. It challenges me. But it also helps me grow. 

2011 was probably the year where the most change occurred in my life, and you would think going through that year I would’ve learned by now, that change is good. But yet again change happened in my life, and it broke me apart. I am such a relational person, and when changes happen in my relationships I freak out. I’ve realized it’s because things become different with someone or we are no longer on the same page and I absolutely hate it. I like being comfortable in my relationships. I like being in good standing with someone. I like when things stay the same. When change occurs all that comfortability suddenly disappears, and I’m back to square one freaking out over it all. My most recent situation with this was probably the best thing that ever happened to me though. 

I can’t express how good change is for our lives. Change in all areas of life, not just in relationships. If we lived in a world of the same things over and over again, we learn nothing. We get stagnent. We get too comfortable. We don’t grow. All the change in my life has happened for my good. It has happened because I need to mature. I need to grow and trust the Lord. In the moment it seems like one of the worst experiences, but if we look at all the changes in our lives in hindsight they were the best things that could have ever happened. From my recent situation, I realized so much growth in my life. I realized I need to lower expectations. I realized I need to love unconditionally. I realized the things I want from others is what I need to want out of myself in my relationship with my Heavenly Father. I would not have learned any of these things if it weren’t for the change I went through. Now my relationship with this person is better than ever before. It was time to grow up. 

Sure, change is scary. Sure, it hurts sometimes. But change is beneficial. Change is what needs to happen in order for us to grow into the person that God has called us to be. We can’t be comfortable. We can’t be stagnent. We can’t get complacent. 

Embrace the change.