Beauty from Ashes

Too much at once.

I was all ready to write a good post about something I learned this week, but I’ve just went through a whirlwind of emotions the past 3 days, I can’t think straight. Here are my jumbled thoughts for you: 

I don’t want to just know God. I want to experience God. I want to act upon what He asks of me. I hate miscommunication with a passion. I need to stop pulling away from people just because I don’t feel like I’m needed. I need to stop feeling unappreciated. I’m bigger than that. I wondered what happened to us again today. I miss us. I miss my family. God is wrecking me again. I need to love people again. I’m questioning why I’m even here at this school. I’ve been feeling so many unexplained emotions. I want something new. I want summer. I want to start doing something with my life. I feel inadequate, and that exactly how I’m supposed to be feeling. I’ve realized I have a passionate heart for worship. I want to get away. 

I’m a mess. And its good. I hope to be posting something more encouraging soon. I apologize for my lack of good thoughts. 

- ChristinaJoy